Murong paper on the snow mountain

Chapter 106

He thought hard and couldn't come up with an answer that would convince Ye Pu, so he could only ask him: "Then why are you so attached to someone like me?"

"..."

"You have also traveled through Miaojiang and Yunsheng, and you have met so many people in every way. The world is better than me, so there are more than tens of thousands? Aren't they all...the same?"

"That's not my attachment! Master... Master is different from them!"

"What's the difference?"

"Master is better than them, Master is better than them...Master is better than them..."

"You can't say why, can you?"

Ye Pu became anxious: "Master is just different from them! No matter how good others are, it is their business and has nothing to do with me. In Ye Pu's eyes, Master is the best one! No one can compare!"

"Since that's the case, you... why can't you understand?"

Ye Pu was stunned.

"But……"

"You keep asking me what's good about him. In fact, I really want to say what's good about him. I'm afraid I won't be able to talk about it for three days and three nights. Although the bad points can also be talked about for a long time. But no matter whether it's good or bad, it's all like this. Even, even if I want to let him go too..."

"Master?"

Ye Pu was a little at a loss, it's not that he has never seen Murong Zhi depressed, nor has he seen him cry, but he...has never been like this before.Murong Zhi in front of him at this moment just silently lowered his head and was weary, although he still smiled wryly with the corners of his lips curled up, but his eyes were silently red.

"Master, what's the matter, did he bully—"

Murong Zhi shook his head: "He has always treated me well, but he treats me well because he has forgotten the past. I just took others' place in his heart and deceived myself and others."

"..." Ye Pu opened his mouth, but was unable to speak.

In the past, Murongzhi, no matter how sad he was, he knew how to cover up with his usual anger and indifference. He would smile and say "it's okay to leave", and would laugh at himself "being cheated again", but he was never willing to admit how much he really was. uncomfortable.

But his expression at this moment was only extremely wronged and bewildered.There was no anger, no gnashing of teeth, not even the bit of "hate" that used to cover up his downfall and embarrassment was gone.

"Now...he has remembered everything. These days, he must have been... thinking about how to tell me, but he couldn't bear to speak, and I pretended not to notice anything, day after day Whitewash peace for a day."

"But how long can it last like this? He will eventually go back to that person..."

"Master, he will not go back to King Ning."

"..."

"He never thought of going back to that King Ning."

"You don't know." Murong Zhi smiled bitterly with tears in his eyes.

"No, I know."

Murong Zhi was dumbfounded, looking at Ye Pu's dignified and complicated expression under the night.But a hand was pulled away, and a warm, hard and moist thing was stuffed into the palm of the hand. Looking down, it was the blue bird jade pendant.

"General Xie didn't betray Master. At that time, it wasn't that he didn't want to go back to Master, but I couldn't let him go back."

"what are you saying?"

Ye Pu took Murong Zhi's hand and asked him to hold the jade pendant tightly.

"Ye Pu, what did you mean just now?"

"When you find him, let him tell you by himself."

"……try to find?"

"Well, if it's Master, you can definitely find it."

"..."

"Master must find it very strange. Why do I work under the command of King Liang? After all, it was King Ning who ordered General Zhenyuan to slaughter the entire Yeze clan in Chonghua Zejing back then. I absolutely don't believe it."

"But in Hannan City, His Highness King Liang... taught me a truth."

"He told me that a person's heart is only as big as two palms can support. If you can pretend to hate, you can't pretend to be the one you love; and if you can pretend to love, you can't pretend to be unambitious; And if you want to pretend to be able to pretend to be state affairs, family affairs, and people's lives, you can't have a person who is "hatred" or "overwhelming the country and the city"."

"Ye Pu is the master's apprentice, and he also bears the blood and blood of the whole family, but...Ye Pu is the young master of the southern border."

"Big Sister, Lingguo'er, Sanmiao and the Tu people... Many people who live in this land as diligently and honestly as my close relatives, still trust and rely on me."

"So... Ye Pu can no longer... only guard Master for the rest of his life."

"Even though Master has always been that kind of person to Ye Pu—a person who can make Ye Pu content, forget about hatred, and want to protect no matter what the price is."

He looked at the person in front of him, as if he still had a lot of stories, as if he still had a thousand words to say, but in the end he only bit his lips, leaving a low sigh.

"Master will probably never understand how much Ye Pu envies General Zhenyuan. How much he imagined that he was born with nothing to worry about, and it was enough to just guard Master. He also wanted to be by Master's side early like him, and take up a Unbeatable location."

"I used to... always wanted to replace him, but unfortunately, I still couldn't be him."

"Master, Ye Pu has done many wrong things in the past, maybe Master will hate me and blame me. But all along, Ye Pu's heart of wishing Master to be happy and to be cherished and loved by others has never changed."

"Maybe in the future, I will become something that Master doesn't like, and maybe Master will find that from the very beginning, my nature is not what Master has in front of me. But even if Master thinks I'm insidious or despicable, only this thing, I hope Master, never forget."

……

Like a bubble that cannot be grasped, the boy disappeared from the front.

Only Murong Zhi was holding the piece of blue bird jade in his hands, proving that everything just now should not be illusory.

But this place where I am now... what kind of place is it?

The surroundings are still dark, but they are not as invisible as before.Across the gauze curtain, there are familiar tables, chairs and furnishings, Murong Zhi's heart skipped a beat, isn't this, isn't it Ting Xue Gong?

He picked up the fine dust on the table and sprinkled it on his fingertips.

But here...shouldn't it have been burnt to scorched earth long ago?

The ground is still cold and smooth with stone bricks under my feet. I pushed the door and went out into the front hall. Everything was furnished as usual. I walked into the yard from the front hall. The winter sun was dazzling. A handsome boy of sixteen or seventeen was standing in the yard, Seeing him coming, he quickly put down the broom to sweep the fallen leaves and rushed over.

"Azhi, Azhi, I want to go down the mountain to have a look~ It's only a few days, and I'll be back soon. Is that okay?"

It turned out that it was that day...

"Just promise me, I will be back soon~"

The weight of the luggage is obviously not the luggage that will be back in a few days.Whatever he could pretend, the boy tried every means to stuff it into the package, exactly the same as the parting scene in his memory.

He stood there looking at the boy, feeling completely bewildered.

Do it all over again, what's the difference?

Do it all over again, can I... keep him?

"Don't go", it's just three simple words, he opened his mouth until his mouth felt dry, but he still couldn't say it.

Why not say it?Open your mouth and leave him alone!

Xiao Jiang is a good boy. Although he is stubborn, he has a kind nature.As long as he opens his mouth, as long as he shows even a little reluctance at a moment that can be redeemed, instead of sending him away with a smile like before, Murong Zhi will not believe that Xie Lu can really wave his sleeves and walk away without any worries .

He will stay.Just ask him and he will definitely stay.

Take ten thousand steps back and say, even if you can't keep him, wouldn't it be fine to force him to stay? !

Xie Lu's martial arts at this time are not as good as those he honed in the ten years of fighting.As long as Murong Zhi thinks about it, he has a hundred ways to restrain him. He can absolutely tie him up and imprison him so that he cannot leave his side.

However, he remained motionless.

"Why don't you keep me?"

Listening to the vermilion door of the Snow Palace, Xie Lu was preparing to set off with his heavy luggage on his back. Against the light, Murong Zhi couldn't see the expression on his face.

"As long as you say stay, I will stay. But why...don't you keep me?"

The illusory past and ethereal future are finally intertwined into chaos at this moment.Of course Murong Zhi remembered Xie Lv at that time, and never asked him that.

So, who is the person in front of him, and when did Xie Lu come from?

He didn't know, and he didn't bother to think about it, but in this moment of trance, he finally found the answer to an important question.

Yes, why not keep him?

I always thought that letting him go was out of self-deceiving cowardice.Don't say anything, give him freedom, and then just wait like this, even if you spend your whole life waiting in vain, but you still have the most sporadic hope that he can return to your side?

No, not like that.

"I just... don't want to become like Master."

He always remembered to take blood all over the place, the master laughed wildly.Listening to Xuegong lying on the ice-cold ground of his ex-lover who died unrepentantly, and how that person looked like a walking corpse later.

"I can't...absolutely don't become that kind of person."

I absolutely don't want to fall into madness like him one day, fall into the bottomless darkness, and then hurt the most important you with my own hands.

I am boring and obstinate, if you want to leave, if you force me to stay, the longer the time passes, the less happy you will be and the more you will tire of me.I don't want to go down that road.Because I like you, I hope you can be happy, I hope you can smile every day, even if it is in a place I can no longer see.

"But even if you knew the ending and what would happen after I left you, would you still not keep me?"

"Well, don't stay."

"..."

"If you keep you, the 'ending' will change, but it will definitely not change for the better. I will definitely become a ghost in the end, and I will become a person who hates and cannot forgive me, and you will... definitely not forgive me."

"What are you talking about...how did you become like that? Ah Zhi is the best in the world, you won't—"

Will do.I have also gouged out other people's eyes, and I have also lied to others. Maybe I would seek your life because of a mistake in the past.

Thankfully it didn't do that.But what if you were forced to stay in the first place?

Ten years, 20 years, 30 years, you will never stop longing for the "outside world", so I can only keep breaking off your wings, and torture each other endlessly.