rebirth retreat

Chapter 80

That night, Gu Liuguang didn't sleep very well.The nightmare, like the night that swallowed the day, had already invaded his brain when he closed his eyes.

He dreamed of wandering with his mother when he was a child, and the reaction he regarded as a treasure after Gu Ning was born, as well as the occasional warmth from his mother, and even every little bit of meeting Yan Dongting after he fled with Ning Ning. …The things that happened in the past twenty years, like a silent movie with the fast-forward button being pressed, flashed in front of his eyes, and finally fixed on his mother's disheveled face in the morgue .

The camera backed up slowly, and he "saw" himself standing in front of his mother's body, the expression on his face was neither sad nor indifferent. "He" stood there silently for a long time, until another figure appeared behind him.

That person was half a head taller than him, with broad and powerful shoulders, handsome and stern.After that person appeared, he didn't speak, but hugged "him" tightly from behind, and he clearly felt that the self in the dream relaxed.

That person used to be another nightmare of his, but now it has become the most solid force to stabilize his emotions.

However, this kind of warmth didn't last long, and the dream began to change again.

He "saw" that the floor of the morgue suddenly turned into a huge vortex, and his mother's body and the cold iron bed were pulled down by the suction of the vortex in an instant. In his dream, he showed a terrified expression on his face, stretched out. He tried to save him, but then he found himself falling into the whirlpool.Just when he thought he was going to die, suddenly a pair of hands stretched out from the side, and firmly grasped "him". "He" raised his head, and the man squatted at the top, his face full of tension.

He suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

Unexpectedly, a black shadow suddenly shrouded behind that person, and he hurriedly wanted to remind him, but a gunshot came from his ear.He saw black and white blood spurting from the man's heart and splashing on his face.It was clearly just a dream, but he could feel the hot temperature on his face, and——

The sharp pain and scream of the heart.

Gu Liuguang suddenly opened his eyes, panting heavily with his mouth open.The cold air made his consciousness gradually regain consciousness, but the pain in his heart was still very clear and strong. He sat up quickly, threw off the quilt, jumped out of bed, and ran out of the door with bare feet.

Pushing open the door of the bedroom next door, Gu Liuguang cast his eyes on the bed, and when he found that there was no one there, he panicked.

What about people?Where did you go?

He turned around and anxiously searched for the figure of that person in the house, the living room, the terrace, the kitchen, and even the bathroom——

No, nowhere.

The scene of the man being shot in the chest in his mind was lingering in front of his eyes. He raised his hand and pressed it on his chest, suddenly wanting to cry.

"Liu Guang?" The familiar call suddenly came from behind, "Why are you awake?"

Gu Liuguang turned his head, and in the darkness, the approaching figure of the man was so clear.

A force hit him, and Yan Dongting quickly reached out to support the person who was hugging him tightly, and took two steps back slightly to stabilize his figure.

"What's wrong?" Feeling the strong anxiety coming from his arms, Yan Dongting lowered his head, "I don't wear shoes, are you having a nightmare?"

Gu Liuguang tightened his arms without saying a word.

"I'm here." Patting him on the back lightly, Yan Dongting softened his voice.

The tight body made Gu Liuguang truly feel the strong heartbeat in Yan Dongting's chest. He closed his eyes and buried his face deeply into Yan Dongting's neck.

"Where have you been?" He heard his own voice heavy and hoarse.

"Can't sleep, I processed the documents in the study." Yan Dongting stroked the soft hair on the back of his head, his eyes were full of pity, "What did you dream about, so scared?"

"Don't ask."

Yan Dongting said with a smile: "Okay, don't ask."

"What are you laughing at?" Gu Liuguang asked in a muffled voice.

"I'm just a little happy," Yan Dongting tilted his head and kissed his hair lightly, "You're thinking of me." After saying this, he thought that Gu Liuguang would push him away awkwardly as always, but he was surprised. hugged him tightly again.

Unable to tell what emotion swept his heart at that moment, Yan Dongting only knew that he had completely wrapped that person in his wings with a stronger posture.

"Liuguang..."

"I want you to accompany me." Gu Liuguang whispered.

"it is good."

"I want you to stand where I can see you."

"……it is good."

In the large and warm bedroom, there was a faint lamp on the bedside table as always.Gu Liuguang held Yan Dongting's arm tightly, and leaned sideways to the man like a child who was afraid of the dark.The man raised his hand and stroked his hair one after another, his chest rose and fell slightly due to the movement.

In seven years, they have never been as close as they are now.Although Yan Dongting held Gu Liuguang in his arms countless times during those sleepless nights, Liu Guang was always far away from him at that time, so far away that he would lose it completely if he let go, so he just Can tighten the arms again and again.

Do you regret it?he asked himself.No, no matter how many times he does it again, he will still make the same choice.Because meeting Gu Liuguang was a fate he could not escape.

Although he didn't know how much weight he had in Liu Guang's heart, at least at this moment, he was needed.

"Are you sleepy? Go to sleep if you're sleepy." Yan Dongting said, patting Gu Liuguang's back lightly.

"I can't sleep." Gu Liuguang whispered, "My mind is in a mess."

"Then lie down like this." Yan Dongting said, "I will accompany you."

"Hello." Gu Liuguang called softly.

"kindness?"

Gu Liuguang paused for a while before saying, "Tell me about your past."

"What do you want to hear?" Yan Dongting slightly propped himself up, leaned against the soft pillow, and ran his fingers through the young man's dark hair.

"Your family, your parents, what kind of people are they?"

The movements of his hands stopped, and Yan Dongting asked, "Why do you want to know this?"

"Never heard you mention it."

Yan Dongting looked at the empty air in front of him, and recalled the family he hadn't seen for many years.

"My mother...is a very knowledgeable woman. She is like a carefully carved template, which can't be faulted at all, but is so perfect that it makes people feel indifferent. She rarely taught me, and she never talked with me. Being too close, and occasionally giving me a hug, made me feel her disgust for me.

"And my father is a cold-blooded and almost ruthless person. He almost never communicates with me, and there is no father's love in his eyes. In his eyes, I am not like his child. It's more like a tool that must inherit the family business. As time goes by, I also began to become more and more like him, arbitrary, authoritarian, and unscrupulous in order to achieve the goal."

After a pause, Yan Dongting said: "Perhaps, this is also the reason why my mother refuses to get close to me. From the time I was sensible, I found that the two of them had nothing to do except the occasions they had to attend together. Communication. At that time, I thought it was because my father had a bad temper and my mother was afraid of him, so I didn’t dare to get close. It wasn’t until my mother died of a serious illness that I discovered that they had always hated each other. This discovery once puzzled me, even if it was Business marriage, but after being together for so many years, there will still be some affection."

"You also know what happened later. I investigated privately for a long time with doubts, and finally found the agreement in my father's study." Yan Dongting's face was full of mockery, "There is no relationship between them, only interests, and I am just a necessity created to pass on the family business."

"Do you know what my father said when he kicked me out of the house?" Yan Dongting looked down at Gu Liuguang, "He said, 'You shouldn't have come into this world in the first place, and it was me who brought you up to this point. Most merciful, get out of this house or I'll shoot you dead'."

Gu Liuguang's fingertips were completely cold when he heard these words.He knew that Yan Dongting must come from an extraordinary background, and he had imagined his past life, but no matter how much he imagined, it was not as shocking as what he heard with his own ears.

"What happened next? Where did you go?" Gu Liuguang asked.

Yan Dongting smiled: "After that, just like you, wandering in countless cities, looking for a way out."

The words "like you" shocked Gu Liuguang's heart.In fact, this person has always put him in the same position.

"Liu Guang, in fact, you have always been luckier than me." Yan Dongting whispered, stroking the hair of the person beside him, "Beside you is Ning Ning who loves you, has a wish to fulfill, and has a dream that belongs to you." Happiness. But I have nothing."

"But you are more successful than me." Gu Liuguang said sincerely.

"That's because I'm alone, so I have nothing to fear." After a pause, Yan Dongting said, "Until I met you and Ningning."

Gu Liuguang fell silent.What he said, he knew.From the time they met, this person has blocked countless dangers for him, and even sacrificed his own foundation before to make his escape possible.

Gu Liuguang remembered that dream again.

This person held himself on the edge of the abyss, but because of himself, he fell into the real abyss.

He was saddened by it, but he was powerless to stop it.

At this moment, he suddenly understood Gu Ning's mood.

——If death will suddenly come tomorrow, if everything will eventually be lost, then why can't we try to stay with the most important person for a while within the limited time?Even if they both have shortcomings, there are still many edges and corners that need to be adjusted, but what does that matter?No one is born with a tacit understanding, and all quarrels and misunderstandings will pass away, won't they?

Gu Liuguang's continuous silence made Yan Dongting mistakenly think that he had poked his sore spot again, so he hurriedly pressed his shoulder and said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned Ningning."

"I don't blame you." Gu Liuguang said, "I know that you are also uncomfortable, and you love her no less than I do."

Yan Dongting propped his forehead and smiled softly: "Did you know that she once said that she wanted to marry me when she grows up?"

Gu Liuguang was stunned, and asked in disbelief: "What? Marry you?" How dare this little girl say anything...

"She said that she didn't want the three of us to be separated." Yan Dongting said, he looked into Gu Liuguang's bright eyes in the dark, "I hope I will never let her down."

"Don't let me down either." Gu Liuguang turned his face away and said in a low voice.

"Okay." Yan Dongting laughed.

After this conversation, neither of them spoke again, but they clearly felt the treasure hidden deep in their hearts from each other.Sleepiness finally hit Gu Liuguang, he leaned his face to that side, and closed his eyes.

"Yan, good night..."

After kissing his forehead, Yan Dongting said softly, "Good night."