The Cannon Fodder Strikes Back

Chapter 74

Yun Jinshu would go to the hospital every day, even though Han Jiang didn't seem to be waking up, he didn't care much.

Carrying a stainless steel lunch box every day, going to the hospital after nine in the morning, and returning home with an empty lunch box after dinner at five in the evening, it seems that this nine-to-five life has become his second job.

The bodyguard guarding the door first saw him and would go to ask Han Zhongtian for instructions, but then he simply said nothing, and when he saw Yun Jinshu, he smiled and said hello, turned and left, leaving time for the two of them to spend alone.

On this day, Zhang's mother asked for leave to go back to her hometown, so Yun Jinshu planned to take Kidou to the hospital with her.The little guy is more than two years old now, he is growing very fast, and his size has grown a lot. Now he can speak some simple sentences. Since he learned to walk, he never wants to be hugged by his father. Running wildly back and forth in the house.

In early winter, when the weather was getting colder, Yun Jinshu wrapped him a small goose yellow scarf and buttoned up a little tiger fur hat with fluffy trim, and took him by the little hand to get into the taxi.

Along the way, the little guy was very curious, jumping up and down, asking back and forth in a childlike voice, "Papa, where are we going?"

"I went to see a friend of my father's." Yun Jinshu raised his hand to rub his soft and thin hair, and said with a smile.

"What kind of friend? Rarity and Douzi?"

Kidney Dou had a chubby little face, smiling foolishly, and the dimples on his face made people want to poke them.

Rarity is a little boy who moved in from the next door. He is over three years old now. He has a very adult personality, but Kidou seems to play well with him. He always talks about Rarity by the corner of his clothes. It's his wife.

Yun Jinshu laughed out loud, pinched his face and said, "The next time you see Rarity, don't say 'he is my wife' again, you know, the brat really knows a lot."

"That's not true! Grandma Zhang said that only someone she likes can be called a wife. Douzi likes Rarity, so he is a wife. Dad, is the person you want to meet also your wife?"

Yun Jinshu was a little speechless, raised his hand and stroked his forehead, deeply feeling the failure of his education, where did Kidou learn all these messy things in his mouth?

I couldn't help but raised my hand to pat his little butt, and said with a smile, "Sit down quickly, and let's talk about wives and not wives, and see if I don't beat you to rot your little ass."

Kidney Dou was lying on the back seat of the car, grinning and giggling. Anyway, he knew that Papa was scaring people, so he was reluctant to hit him.

"Papa, the wife you are going to see, do I want to be called Ma Ma?"

"Sit down for me, don't ask questions, and see if you dare to be so happy when you arrive at the hospital." Yun Jinshu felt deeply frustrated. There was nothing he could do about this eccentric son. "The two words frightened him.

Sure enough, as soon as Kidou heard that he was going to the hospital, his little face immediately collapsed, his big eyes filled with moisture, and he grabbed Yun Jinshu's foot and said pitifully, "Papa, Douzi will be good, take me to get an injection." .”

The little guy didn't learn anything else, but tears came as soon as he said it like a faucet. Obviously, Yun Jinshu knew his son's trick well and was completely unmoved, "We are going to the hospital to see patients, not to give you injections, but if you If you are disobedient, sister nurse will teach you a lesson."

Since the fire, Kidou has been full of deep fear of the hospital, and even regarded the nurses as monsters and ghosts. As soon as she heard what her father said, she immediately scrambled and sat on Yunjinshu's lap, holding onto her father's clothes tightly. Posted it on the corner, "Don't call Kidou Ma Ma, Dad, don't let the nurse sister take me away."

Seeing the interaction between father and son, the driver was so teased that Yun Jinshu also laughed, and stretched out his hand to pinch the tip of his son's nose.

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On the way to the intensive care unit holding Kidney Dou’s little hand, the little guy attracted [-]% turn heads. Those female nurses and female doctors were so cute that they took out a bunch of candy and snacks and stuffed them into his little yellow duck backpack , I can't wait to hold the child in my arms and rub it vigorously.

When they got to the ward, Kidou wrinkled his nose pitifully with a bitter face, "Papa, the hospital is really scary, and the nurse sister is even more terrible. If it wasn't for Ma Ma, Dou Zi wouldn't come here."

Yun Jinshu rubbed his forehead, not understanding why his son recognized the word "Ma Ma", and pushed open the door of the ward helplessly, Kidou first ran in with his short legs jolting.

As usual, Han Jiang was still lying heavily on the bed, without any signs of waking up, the ward was dead silent, only the beeping of the heart rate recorder could be heard.

Kidney Dou was not tall enough to see Han Jiang's face, so he knelt on the chair and climbed onto the hospital bed with his buttocks pouted, staring at Han Jiang's face with his chin in his hand, with a curious expression on his face, "Papa, this person looks familiar. "

Yun Jinshu said "hmm", took off the wool coat on his body and put it aside, "It's rare that you still remember him."

Kidney Dou leaned forward, his chubby face almost touching Han Jiang's, "Is he the uncle who helped Dou Zi drive away the fire-breathing dragon monster and flew up?"

"what?"

Yun Jinshu didn't understand what his son meant all of a sudden, Kidou became a little anxious, waved the chubby hand and said, "It's just the big fire-breathing dragon, the one that burned the house down!"

Raising his eyebrows, Yun Jinshu showed a wry smile. At this moment, he finally understood that Kidney Dou was talking about the fire that almost killed him. He didn't expect that at such a young age, he would remember that Han Jiang had saved him.

With a casual "hmm", Yun Jinshu picked up the comb and helped Han Jiang straighten his hair, feeling a little astringent in his heart. Han Jiang not only saved him, but also Kidney Dou, but now he can no longer move, only To be able to wait for death day after day like this.

Kidney Dou crawled up to Han Jiang's shoulder, touched the slightly protruding stubble on his chin with his small hand, lowered his head and kissed Han Jiang, "Uncle, so you are Mama, Douzi likes you so much, and I will be a fire-breathing dragon in the future." If you get rougher, Douzi will come to you, okay?"

Yun Jinshu's eyelashes trembled, he picked up Kidney Dou and put it on the small chair, saying, "Hey, don't press on his chest, the oxygen mask won't work after a while."

"Is uncle swollen? Why does he open his eyes to greet Douzi?"

"He was asleep and couldn't hear."

"Oh——" Kidney Dou nodded thoughtfully, acting like a little adult, and then stuck to Han Jiang's ear, "Uncle, big slob, get up quickly, don't sleep anymore."

No matter how much Kidou scratched and scratched, Han Jiang didn't react at all. Kidou didn't give up, and continued to rub against his neck with a shy face, "Uncle, wake up, Dad and I are still waiting for you to play together, wake up Well."

The little guy's childish voice echoed in the ward. He was still too young to understand that there is a kind of person in this world who may never wake up once they fall asleep.

Seeing this, Yun Jinshu felt uncomfortable, hugged his son on his knees and said, "Stop barking, he will wake up naturally if he wants to see you, don't waste your time talking."

After hearing this, Kidou's eyes turned red again, and in a blink of an eye she burst into tears, "Uncle obviously liked Kidou before, why don't you want me now, woo woo woo..."

The little guy was crying sadly, his watery black eyes were streaming down with tears, and the tiger fur hat on his head was also crooked, hanging pitifully on his head, the chubby hand tightly pinched Han Jiang's cuff, crying heartbreaking.

Yun Jinshu couldn't stand it, hugged him and coaxed him non-stop, turned to look at Han Jiang, and suddenly felt some desolate and boundless resentment in his heart.

Look, you've exhausted everyone and spent your life with you every day, don't you feel particularly happy now?

After coaxing for a long time, the little guy finally stopped crying and fell asleep lying on Yun Jinshu's shoulder. At this time, the door of the ward opened. Yun Jinshu raised his head in surprise, but saw Gu Yan who hadn't seen him for a long time.

"Brother Gu? Why are you here?"

Gu Yan was wearing a thin iron-gray coat today, and the tip of his nose was a little red from the cold. He walked in and put the flower basket in his hand aside, and smiled at Yun Jinshu.

"It's nothing, I just came to visit Han Jiang and you by the way."

Yun Jinshu put his son on another empty bed next to him, and twitched the corners of his mouth, "Last time you saved me, I didn't even have time to come to the door to thank you, but let you come to me again, I'm really ashamed."

"Hey, do we need to talk about this?" Gu Yan waved his hand, pulled a chair and sat down, asked about Kidou's recent situation, and then said in silence for a while, "Is your health okay?"

Yun Jinshu was stunned for a moment, then understood what he meant, and said with a smile, "There was no major problem at first, I just injured my arm a little bit, and it's healed now. To be honest, I fell into the sea and survived. I'm really lucky." big."

Hearing this, Gu Yan didn't follow along with the smile. The expression on his face was very complicated, and his face was pale and ugly. He took a deep breath, closed his eyes and said, "I...I'm sorry, Jin Shu, I really Yes, I am sorry for you, if I could catch you, maybe..."

"Stop making trouble, Brother Gu, you have helped me too much, and I already feel that I am not clear in this life. If you hadn't brought the police to me this time, maybe I would have been killed by Dong Xu long ago .”

"But I... if I jump down with you..." Gu Yan didn't say anything further.

Yun Jinshu twitched the corners of his mouth, "What do you want to jump down with me? Do you want me to owe you forever? Brother Gu, I've never been so glad that you didn't do anything stupid for me anymore. Make me feel guilty forever?"

Gu Yan raised his head with difficulty, his deep eyes showed pain.

Obviously being so close, Yun Jinshu's will has been shaken by himself, as long as he stretches out his hand, he can hold him, but because of this difference in thinking...he and Yun Jinshu are no longer possible.

After a long time, he suddenly pulled out a smile, looked at him and said, "If it's me and not Han Jiang who jumped with you, is there still a possibility for us?"

Yun Jinshu shook his head, "I will always remember that I owe you my life, and maybe I will go with you, but that can only be guilt and nothing else."

"...You are so cruel." Gu Yan pulled the corner of his mouth with difficulty.

Yun Jinshu raised the corners of his mouth and smiled and did not speak again.

The feeling of being given away in this world is never love. If you keep procrastinating and don't give the other party a break, that is really cruel.

The two were silent with each other, and only the sound of Didi's machine could be heard in the ward. Gu Yan knew that he had really lost, and he was already out before joining. In the entanglement between Yun Jinshu and Han Jiang, all he could do was to be a Friends, there is no second choice.

After a long time, Gu Yan twitched the corner of his mouth and changed the subject, "Han Jiang... how is he doing now?"

"What else can I do, wait until I die, anyway, it won't be worse than it is now."

Gu Yan choked, and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't do that, now that medical skills are so advanced, he might wake up in a while."

"Oh, it's useless. Even the doctor said that the possibility of him waking up is very small. Han Zhongtian is covering the sky with only one hand in S city. Who would dare to lie to him."

"Then what are you going to do, keep waiting like this?"

Yun Jinshu paused, then shook his head, pulled out a very shallow smile, put his finger on Han Jiang's arm unconsciously and said, "I won't be angry with a living dead, life has to go on, now it's a test of patience When my patience is all exhausted, I will leave immediately and never come back.”

"Where are you going then?"

"I don't know where to go, maybe it's Vancouver or some other place, anyway, I don't want to stay in City S anymore in this life."

After Yun Jinshu finished speaking, he suddenly felt a slight tremor in his knuckles, as if he had been hit hard by a hammer, his eyes widened suddenly, and he stood up abruptly.

"He... did he move?"

Fearing that this was just a dream, Yun Jinshu fixed his eyes on Han Jiang's arm and did not dare to blink. This time he was right. Han Jiang's fingers moved slightly, and even his eyelashes trembled.

"Han Jiang!"

He cried out aloud, went up and grabbed Han Jiang's collar, trying to make him open his eyes, but someone grabbed him tightly behind him.

"Jin Shu! Look clearly, he is not awake!"

Gu Yan's voice was like a bucket of cold water being poured on his head. Yun Jinshu paused subconsciously, then fell back on the chair in a trance, and carefully looked at Han Jiang on the bed, motionless, still as if he was dead. Any sign of waking up.

Gu Yan looked at him worriedly, seemed to be frightened by his reaction, pressed his hands tightly on his shoulders and said, "Are you hallucinating, Han Jiang didn't wake up at all, and didn't even move! You How long has it been like this?"

It was only now that Yun Jinshu came back to his senses completely. He had indeed had such hallucinations more than once. Maybe it was because he stayed in front of the hospital bed for too long. He always felt that Han Jiang was moving, but every time he was surprised After that came a more serious loss.

The bodyguards and nurses have long been accustomed to his reactions. After all, many family members of vegetative people always have these strange reactions, and even in the end they don't pay any attention to what the family members say.

But obviously, this is the first time Gu Yan saw Yun Jinshu losing his composure, and he had a very bad premonition in his heart. He was afraid that something would happen to Yun Jinshu if he continued like this, so he had to keep patting him on the shoulder to make him calm down. so nervous.

Yun Jinshu took a deep breath, rubbed his sore forehead and didn't answer Gu Yan's question, but raised his head and asked him, "Do you have any cigarettes, give me one."

Gu Yan took out a cigarette and handed it to him. Yun Jinshu was so irritable that he walked out of the ward with the cigarette, leaned on the handrail in the garden, looked at the artificial lake in the distance and inhaled deeply. The effect of nicotine made him It relieved a lot, but the heavier fatigue still lingered.

Such repeated sorrows and joys made his patience continue to pass away. He didn't know how long he could continue to wait. The long, endless waiting made him really unable to hold on.

Gu Yan followed up from behind and patted him on the shoulder. He suddenly felt that even if there was no love, he couldn't watch his friend torture himself like this. After thinking for a long time, he tentatively said, "Jin Shu, be more patient and say Maybe next time it will be true.”

Yun Jinshu took a puff of cigarette, exhaled a white smoke ring, and twitched the corner of his mouth, "Don't say it, actually, my patience is almost exhausted."

Gu Yan was suffocated, and then wanted to speak out his sincerity, "Let's go, I'm so tired of living here, why don't you take Kidney Dou and leave, just like you said, go to Vancouver or go to other places, Anyway, are you happier than you are now?"

"..." Yun Jinshu was silent, it was really difficult for him to choose whether to leave or stay.

"Jin Shu, I know a place that is very suitable for vacation, and it's far away from here. As long as you nod, you can leave immediately, I promise."

What Gu Yan said was very serious, he didn't expect love at this moment, he just wanted Yun Jinshu to have a good life, even if the person standing in front of him was a friend, he would support him to leave without hesitation.

Yun Jinshu snuffed out the cigarette butt, and nodded slightly after a long time, "Yes, you are right, I really should go."

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Han Jiang felt that he seemed to be awake, but no one discovered the secret.

When Yun Jinshu came to see him in the ward, he was already conscious, but at that time, a lot of memories were suddenly stuffed into his head, which made him unable to adapt at once, so he couldn't always sit up.

He could hear everything Yun Jinshu said in front of the hospital bed, and those chaotic and entangled past life memories were finally sorted out in Yun Jinshu's few words.

It turned out that from the beginning to the end, he was so inferior to a beast, he played with Yun Jinshu as a shield for five full years, and even listened to Han Zhongtian's words because of his stupidity, and sent his lover to a dead end with his own hands.

Once thinking of these complicated and painful memories, Han Jiang no longer has the courage to face Yun Jinshu. He is afraid of seeing his face that hates himself to the bone, and even more afraid of going around for two lifetimes. The two of them can only miss it so abruptly. .

Several times he tried to struggle to open his eyes, but his body was as heavy as lead. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make himself respond to Yun Jinshu at all.

Seeing him appearing on his hospital bed every day, talking occasionally, and most of the time being silent all day long, but the atmosphere of being together like this is so wonderful that he is afraid that once he wakes up, this dream will be shattered .

How much he wanted to reach out to hold Yun Jinshu's face and give him a belated kiss, to say sorry.

But his body is already at its limit. Apart from his head being able to think, he doesn't even have the strength to move, so getting along with each other quietly like this has become the most extravagant thing. He wants to wake up quickly, but is also afraid that he will face loss The opponent's fear.

So he could only drag it slowly like this, enduring the slow recovery of his body day after day.

When he is strong enough, his body is strong enough to support the memories of two lifetimes, maybe it will be the time when he can really open his eyes and give Yun Jinshu a stable and strong embrace.

On this day, the days were as peaceful as usual. Before Yun Jinshu came to the hospital, Han Jiang suddenly felt that he was no longer bound by his body, and could sit up freely and even walk around.

He was very happy in his heart, and went to the tomb where Yun Jinshu was buried in his previous life based on his vague memories. The weather on this day was cold and there was no heavy rain like that day.

He walked all the way up the hillside according to his memory, stepped on the yellow lawn to the place where the tombstone should stand, squatted down slowly, and stroked the barren ground with his fingers, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

In his previous life, the person he loved was buried here. This person once loved with all his strength, and even died without any cowardice. However, he has failed this person in two lifetimes, and he doesn't know when he will be able to repay it.

Fortunately, Yun Jinshu has returned to his side again, this time he can finally love him completely with a heart that has been emptied long ago, without greed for any impurities, and wholeheartedly spend the rest of his life to love him back.

After sitting on the grass for a long time, Han Jiang drifted towards the hospital when the cold was unbearable. He counted the time in his mind and guessed that Yun Jinshu had probably arrived.

Thinking of the aroma of the millet porridge he made with his own hands, Han Jiang couldn't help but lowered his head and smiled, even wanting to raise his hand to cover his eyes. He didn't want to share his expression with anyone.

Yun Jinshu put the last piece of luggage on the taxi, turned around and smiled at Gu Yan, "Brother Gu, you go back, it's so cold, I will contact you again when we get there."

Gu Yan's heart was so empty, he didn't expect Yun Jinshu to act so fast when he said he wanted to leave, and he didn't even give him a little time to react.

I couldn't help but go forward to help him tie the scarf, wanting to give him a hug, but finally raised my arm and just patted his shoulder, "Since I have decided to leave, let's live a good life, remember to make the kidney beans fatter, Otherwise, my godfather will never forgive you."

His tone was very relaxed, Yun Jinshu followed with a smile and nodded, "Definitely."

"Brother Gu, thank you for taking care of me for so many years. I don't know when we will meet again in the future, so just...take care of yourself." He raised the corners of his mouth recklessly, and opened his arms to give Gu Yan a hug.

Gu Yan felt very sour in his heart, but he had to admit that this kind of Yun Jin Shu was what he wanted to see, "Bless you, Jin Shu, you must live a happy life."

Yun Jinshu laughed, got into the taxi and waved to Gu Yan, Kidou also waved stupidly with a bulging face, "Godfather, Douzi will miss you."

The car started to move gradually, getting farther and farther in Gu Yan's line of sight, he couldn't help running a few steps, waving his hands vigorously, his eyes were a little sore.

Goodbye, my brocade book.

Sitting in the car, Yun Jinshu looked at Yunxia in the sky and exhaled softly, pulled out her SIM card, and threw it out along the car window.

This city is suffocating. Although it carries too much love and hate, it is finally time to say goodbye.

Han Jiang, from today on I will never wait for you again.

The taxi drove onto the highway, leaving behind a cloud of dust and smoke. In the hospital at the other end of the city, the nurse changing the dressing ran out of the ward screaming, "Doctor! Doctor! Mr. Han is awake!"

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