magnificent soul

Chapter 13: The most romantic way to die

The famous writer Schobert once said: "First love is a little stupidity and a lot of curiosity."

Du Yusheng felt that he was really stupid, even ridiculously hypocritical.

However, he really thought so that night.

He leaned on that gentle shoulder and wept, amidst the sad emotions, there was still a trace of joy hidden inside.Because, the other party stretched out his hand and hugged himself in his arms, tightly, without letting go.

The warm embrace, full of masculine fortitude, surrounded him.

At that moment, he felt that even if he was suffocated by the other party's hug, as long as he didn't let go of himself, even if he died like this, he was willing.

He thought his idea was ridiculous, but it was true.

Maybe it's the intoxicating night, maybe it's too much sadness.

Under such tenderness, he couldn't think, and he poured out the feelings in his heart very naturally.

"Bad, I love you."

Du Yusheng felt that this sentence could best express the feelings in his heart, and it was also his most direct mood.

Even if it is nasty, it is also the most real.

He is everything to him at this time, he has nothing left, only him.

Yi Yu Po's hand that was holding him stiffened for a moment, his body paused, and he said softly, "Are you still playing pranks at this time?"

He did not forget Du Yusheng's "doing" a while ago.

However, for some reason, at this moment, he felt in his heart that the other party didn't seem to be joking.

He wanted to ignore this feeling, so he automatically took Du Yusheng's "confession" as a prank joke.

"Today is not April Fool's Day, why should I make such a joke?"

Du Yusheng rested his head on the opponent's chest, feeling the beating there, strong beating again and again.

Yi Yu Po pretended to be calm, and said in a low voice, "Really? Thank you so much, but it's a pity that I can't respond to your feelings." He who usually cherishes words like gold, actually said such a long sentence to reject himself?

Du Yusheng smiled helplessly, raised his head, looked into those gray eyes, and said softly: "Sometimes feelings are a matter of one person, and I never thought of asking for your response. I just want to pass it on to you. Even if you don't accept."

Even though he knew in his heart that this was the truth, it was Du Yusheng's heartfelt wish.However, when he said it, there was a bitterness in his mouth.

He was like a person greedily breathing the air, wanting to get a straight response.

Even if it's just a word or a look, as long as it proves that he loves himself, he will have no regrets in this life.

Suddenly, Yi Yu Po had the idea of ​​fleeing in panic.

He was obviously the god of death, and he hadn't seen any bloody storms, but at this moment, he was afraid of the deep affection in those watery eyes.

He is not a young man who is new to love. When he was still a human being, he also had a beautiful and unforgettable first love.

I used to secretly stand downstairs with the girl I liked, waiting for her to go to school.When it was raining, they held an umbrella together, looking at the outlines that are now blurred with almost obsessive eyes.

But now he sees himself in Du Yusheng's eyes,

That frantic and young love.

This is not a joke, Du Yusheng is not joking.

"Broken, I want to ask why you don't accept me? I want to know the reason."

When Du Yusheng was speechless, he asked.He is not a person who gives up easily, even if he knows the result, he still wants the reason.

"I have no idea."

Tell the truth in one sentence.In fact, he could use many reasons to tell Du Yusheng that they were gods of death and humans, or that they were all men.But, he just didn't know.

Later, much later.Thinking of tonight in a word, I really want to punch myself hard.

At that time, he would say this answer, not because he didn't know, but because he didn't dare to admit it.If time comes back, his answer will definitely be different.

Du Yusheng took a deep breath, and held back the tears rolling in his eyes again, not to fall.He plucked up the courage to chuckle and said, "Trap, I thought you would use the same-sex reason to reject me!"

He felt that this answer hurt him more than the so-called standard answer.

If it's just that kind of reason, he has no way to change it, because he is not a woman, so he has no choice but to give up.However, the other party gave such an answer.

The heart is like being stabbed by a sword painted with meth, a gentle cut that won't hurt very much.However, it was fatal.

Without saying a word, he quietly listened to Du Yusheng's words.

He felt empty inside, as if something was about to be lost.

Du Yusheng stared at the ceiling in the darkness, wiped away the tears that were still wet, and whispered softly with red eyes: "Trag, why do I like you? I think I like you because of my curiosity and stupidity. But I'd rather be stupid than curious."

He was pulling the quilt with his hands. If possible, he would like to hide in the quilt and cry aloud.

But he didn't want Yi Yupo to see him in such a mess, so he wouldn't do this.

"You will look down on me, right? You actually like you as a man." Du Yusheng smiled helplessly, a little self-defeating.

"I'm not gay."

Yi Yu Po said coldly, the original knife that was deep enough to see the flesh was cut down with all his strength.

"I don't love men, I just happen to fall in love with you of the same sex." Du Yusheng said weakly, he didn't even have the strength to get angry.

Recently, he often thinks about some things in the past.

Said it was before, but it was actually a few months ago.At the beginning, he rejected Li Liuli cruelly and said a lot of rational things, saying that he was not suitable for dating.However, later he planted his heart in the hands of a god of death.

He remembered a joke he heard three years ago, it was a joke told by some rotten girls.

He was still in school at the time, and one day he saw girls in the class reading some comics with relish and whispering to each other.

He also walked over curiously, and looked down at the books in their hands, and after just one glance, he was taken aback, thinking to himself that the girls' hobbies are so strange now.

Perhaps, his face was very strange at that time, and those girls said teasingly: "You don't love men, it's just that you haven't met a man who makes your heart beat."

Perhaps in the past, he would have laughed it off.But now he doesn't smile, he just nods.

No matter how rational a person is, when he meets a heart-moving person, everything cannot be explained.

There are millions of people on earth.However, I happened to meet you, and then you lived in my mind.Don't ask me why I chose you, just because I met you.

"Sorry." He said softly.He didn't know what else to say.

"I'm not sorry, I promise."

Du Yusheng turned around and looked directly at the other party.

The next moment, he showed a pale smile again, and said softly: "Trag, if there is an afterlife, I really want to be your biological brother or sister. Even if you don't love me, I can be the relative you can't give up."

What kind of confession is this?

Compared with any love song, any affectionate confession is more beautiful and sad.

Du Yusheng is confessing all his emotions, telling the other party that he really wants to be the existence that the other party cares about, even in the next life.

A word broke the silence for a moment, then nodded.They both knew that promise would never come.

Even if it is a beautiful lie, if Du Yusheng wants to hear it, he can give it to the other party!

"You! You are still a terrible man."

Du Yu said hoarsely, with reproach and helplessness.

A night strung together with teardrops is destined to be a sleepless night.

"In the sun, we wear cloth shoes and stride forward with headphones. The jeans seem to tell us, don't care too much, but who took away our original..."

The radio played a very lively song, which reminded Yiyupo of the first time he saw Du Yusheng under the sun.

At that time, the other party was bouncing around the street with earphones on, declaring the beauty of youth and vitality.

"What's the name of the song?" Yi Yu Po asked quietly.

The originally silent room was broken by a low voice.

Du Yusheng put down the magazine in his hand and smiled brightly.

"We in the sun. (Lyricist: Qu Wanting)"

He thought to himself, his tone of nonsense was the same as usual, as if he didn't take what happened last night to heart.

He didn't say anything, just stood quietly and listened to the song.

The trees outside the window don't know when to give birth to green buds, the birds are chirping, and spring is approaching unknowingly.

Du Yusheng, who was half lying on the bed, looked at the other party's expression and secretly breathed a sigh of relief.

Look at each other standing in place.Secretly worrying about his irrationality last night.

If Yi Yu Po was afraid of him and ran away, where would he find him?

He knew that it was difficult for him to even touch him, let alone find him?

If he left, would there be another fake suicide?

impossible?He is not an ancient woman who cries, makes trouble, and hangs herself.

"Wow! Someone is going to jump off the building!"

There were many people walking up and down the corridor outside, and some screamed.

Du Yusheng got out of bed curiously, walked out of the room slowly, stopped a person and asked, "What happened?"

"Someone is on the rooftop preparing to jump off the building."

The other party rushed there in a hurry, as if afraid of missing a drama.

Driven by curiosity, he also wanted to follow.

However, he was stopped by a person.

"What's the fun, too many people, it's not good for your respiratory system."

Yiyupo said quietly, and stopped in front of him.

Du Yusheng can directly pass through the opponent's body.However, he did not do so.

"If you want to see it, go back to the room and watch it." Yi Yu Po thought for a while and said.

After Du Yusheng returned to the room, he saw the original TV set, and after casting a spell without saying a word, it showed the scene on the rooftop.

He opened his mouth slightly, a little in disbelief, and a smile came from the corner of his mouth.

On the screen, a woman stands on the railing of the rooftop and shouts excitedly: "Doctor Fang, I really like you. You said that if I don't die by jumping off, you can date me, right? "

Her voice was coquettish and menacing, like a rose with thorns, beautiful and dangerous.

And Du Yusheng saw a familiar face in the screen, it was his attending doctor.

He saw the other party and the woman looking at each other, there was no smile on the gentle face, but a deep frown and said: "Come back!"

The woman shook her head, muttering to herself, and said softly: "If I can't live in your heart, then let me live in your heart."

After speaking, he smiled poignantly and turned around.

He saw Doctor Fang's panicked expression, and wanted to shout something, but the picture disappeared at that moment.

Du Yusheng looked up at Yiyupo. Although he didn't make a sound, Yiyupo understood what the other party wanted to say.

"Don't look." He refused Du Yusheng's request.

Du Yu pouted his lips.

He didn't know that at this moment, his small actions fell into the eyes of Yiyu.

A word breaks his heart, and he thinks to himself, what's wrong with him?

Why do I have an indescribable feeling when I look at each other?Was it affected by the other party's confession last night?

He shouldn't feel anything, he is the god of death, the messenger who adjudicates the life and death of human beings, as long as the task is completed, it has always been like this.

Du Yusheng looked at the pitch-black screen, and the image just now was still lingering in his mind.

There was a lot of people chattering outside the window, and the sound of an ambulance.

He didn't go to the window to look down, and he was not allowed to watch in the TV, so naturally he wouldn't be allowed to approach the window.

Of course, whether the other party is willing or not, he is not interested in looking at the bloody corpse of a person who jumped off the building.

It turns out that there are many ways to express feelings in the world, and some of them are dark and radical.

"If I can't live in your heart, let me live in your heart.

"The words of the woman before she died lingered in his ears.

For him, Du Yusheng thinks that the most romantic way to kill himself is to be embraced by Yi Yupo, and even if he suffocates to death, he is willing to do so.

Of course, these were words spoken in a state of intoxication. It seemed that he could believe anything at that time, even himself.

However, for that woman, dying in front of the person she loves is what she considers "romantic".However, Du Yusheng disagreed, he did not agree with the woman's approach.

If you die, everything is gone.